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Finally.... I'm going in le.

2008-05-11T22:38:00.000-07:00

Woot... Sat was a day which everyone gone crazy sia. Hahah. Jovi's birthday ma. We go CRAB KING. Its the most expensive meal i had. Haha. But worth it la. Must go try de lo. Haha. Then after the meal,too bad sia,Shane had to go for another celebration. We go Bishan Park HIGH. Buy the Chang Beer. Thai beer lei. Ah le de ai ai. Opps... Hahah. We dance,we play,people around there think we siao liao.We were so noisy,heng,don't have triple 9 or else die. Edwin and ah le got drink also ma...

We played the CLASSIC game. TRUE OR DARE. Eric very sway sia. Keep tio Dare,his rivarly with ah le very fierce. Hahah. Ah le tio his first kiss by eric,must thank me ah le. HAAha. Me and Wee very heng lei,tio 1 time nia. Hahah.

Wasted lo. Don't have too much photos. There is 7 wonders in Bishan Park wor. And got 3 crazy monkeys go climb the lamp post for a photo shot. Hahah.

After that on our way home. My mama called me say my letter come le. Going in soon le. Gonna missssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss this bunch of brothers for sure. And the someone. I'm sorry,i couldn't give you an answer. Cause i don't want to give too much hopes. There is still a better one for you out there. I'm sure that the special someone for you is the best for you. Who knows what happened in the end lei. Hahah.

Same old brand new ME

2008-05-08T21:15:00.000-07:00

Ican still remember the time,you were there when i needed to hold you,feel you.

Finally. ah wee bought his shoes le.My turn le. ah wee tio again le. Same working place... ACTION CITY wor.Hahah.Wee di go for it.Think for yourself. Don be so naive la.Keep bluffing yourself.Just go and *** her man. I know you can,and sure will chen gong de.

Still struggling whether to buy one for her first or myself.Truely very frustrated now.Still considering whether to ask or not.I'm going in the army soon.I don wish to leave her alone.She's already giving you chance only waiting for my answer.Just why in the hell i dare not to give her the answer? Hum? Maybe.... I'm really very scared....i Hmm.sI don wanna think about it for the moment ba.Think where to go better.Haha.

Maybe bugis ba.UFO ask me go surpport him lei.ZZZ.I miss my zizou. Now saving to buy him back.Haha. BTW. ah bell. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!till remember the times,you were there when i needed to hold you,feel you.

Its a another BORING day

2008-05-06T20:48:00.000-07:00

Don know today want go where lei? Singapore is so boring,no where to go de. Getting every sian liao. Everyweek only wish sunday will be fast. I want to play soccer. Last week quite special,cause i force wee to play. Hahah. Too bad la,many still having exams,cannot come. ZZZ. Never mind. This week we shall stomp the yard.

Maybe go queensway ba.Wee wanna buy shoes. zzzz

Its been a long long time since i last blog le

2008-05-05T21:37:00.000-07:00

Today's Eric birthday. 2 years didnt celebrate with him le. He very busy lei. Everyday keep working. Btw, happy 19 birthday. Wish all your dreams come true!!

This past 1 year,happen lots of things. Though of go working to let me not to think too much. Its useless. It's the same. But i'm happy,i got to know some nice friends. I will tryto update my blog de. Hahah

Jovi,i'm quite jealous....Hahah

2007-06-05T11:12:00.000-07:00

Today is a funny day for jovi meh.Intro him to my daughter but end up failing.Think is fail bah.Hahah.Then after that...Jovi though that he make gladys and pei yun>(the girl i intro to jovi).Then jovi very sad.I ask him to go home first.I go meet gladys,she got things to tell me.After i met with gladys.She tell me to call jovi back.She needs to tell jovi things.Then i call jovi to come back..HE is Shattered...But me and gladys keep telling him the problem doesnt lies on him.He had done his part.

Then we chat at gladys's block.Keep chit chat.Then jovi wants gladys to be his god sister.Gladys agreed.They exchange number...I don know why i'm feeling so weird.Like jealous like that.Then i keep on smiling to myself.Like a idiot like that.I need to cover it.Hahah...But jovi.No other meanings ar.Don anyhow think wor.Hee...Then after that we came home...Then i start blogging lor....Hahahahahahhahahahahahahahahhahahahahahah.

LAUGH EVERYDAY IS MY LIFE...

Sian sian sian...Bugis zhui pang

2007-05-20T08:36:00.000-07:00

Hey hey...Today 20th of may...Very de sian...We go bugis again....As usual la...Go there see hong,edwin and ah le playing the WCCF game...Too bad...I no money lei,cant play...Watch them play lor...Man...What hong told me this morning really makes me don wanna go northpoint at the weekends...SCCCCAAARRREE see them...Ahahah...Stupid right...Scare for what man... Then after the trip...Hong and jovi went to sentosa celebrating jing hao's birthday...Then we all go separate ways...I follow hong and vi to harbourfront...They take shuttle bus,i take 855 back to yishun...Edwin go back sengkang,le go back yishun taking train...

In the 855...I been thinking alot of things...Many things suddenly appeared in my mind...People always ask me what i want...I always tell them,i also not sure about....Thinking of the past relationship...Yeah...I agreed with my dad...On the mother's day...13 of may...My dad said if she's a girl...He wouldnt have choose me to be his boy...I agreed with him...I told him what my weak points...

I wasnt strong enough to maintain a relationship,wasnt mature enough to maintain a relationship,cant give care,concern,freedom,happiness to a girl...When i was in a relationship....I felt that i'm blindfold to everything...I'm blind to see everything...The 1st girl who enters my heart...Esther...She taught me in studies..Asking me to study hard...Yeah...I listen to her...Try to study...But when i was in the lowest point of my studies...She left me...Hahah...Saying that my family is giving her pressure...I know...My sister,mum not really that much liking her...But i dint regret of loving you even though we are on secret...Hehe...Funny is it?Fancy saying all this things out...After the break up...Trying to add strong infront of everyone...In the past...I'm selfish,hot tempered...Everyone is leaving away...Never mind i said to myself...I can be alone...Well,i'm used to it...Haaa...

After 4 months...Eric called me...Asked in go out with a girl called Gladys...I say no problem...Let me bath first....After that...We went Junction 8 go eat Yoshi Noya(hope i dint spell wrong)...Me and a girl call Fang ting was suppose to matchmake Eric and Gladys...I don know why that day i was feeling weird...Seeing Gladys makes me feel so warmth in my heart...I know if i stay longer...Things will happened....So i told a lie...I said my friend ask me to go play basketball and i have to go now...I go off le...In mrt...I message Eric,telling him all the way...Jio her man...She's a nice girl but a bit crazy and abit les...Hehe...He showed the message to her...Gladys replied me that me and eric are just friends...Don think so much...After in the night,i recieve a message which i dint see the number before...She told me she's Gladys,i don know why i'm so high that night...Just like a kido having a new toys...We message very long.Ya...Very long...After all those message,i got a feeling that i'm once in love...When Eric got to know that i'm going after Gladys... Our relation in brothers got stray...We seldom talk...Almost avoiding each other...I feel sad...That day...I left hong house...Message both eric and gladys...Blessing them...I'll quit...I wish all the best to you 2...Both of them replied me..Eric said,Brother...Don like that..We on fair competition...Gladys asked me why i gave up?I told her..If 3 person is so stress about this things...Why not 1 person stress is enough...I wish to quit...I wish to be the one leaving...I'm wishing you 2 all the best....Eric say its ok...Fair competition..No regrets...Same to Gladys...Asking me not to give up... So i didnt give up...On the 24th May 2005 night time...I called gladys asking her whether she's free to chat...It was around 10 plus...WE chat alot of things...Chat until 4 plus...I ask her what she thinks of me cause there are total of 6 guys going after her...I hint her Eric is a nice stead...She say he stay too far...I laugh then ask what about the others...She didnt say anything...I continue saying Eric's good point...Then she say she's more interested the one staying in yishun...I was shocked!!!!Around that time..We both are shy...Then i finally bring out my guts telling and asking her to be my girl...Will try my best to make her happy...She agreed...I was overjoy!!!My mum then wake up and KP me still don want go sleep!!!!Then i tell Gladys...Dear...Go sleep bah...My mum KP me le...I miss you...See you tml....I dint sleep that night...Go school straight...My mouth couldnt stop smiling....After my class...I run to her school wait for her...We go for lunch after that...Well...I couldnt do a job as a stead....Evrytime i promises her that we'll go suntec but end up she stays in my house doing housework with my mum and watching me play maplestory...Fuck man...What am i thinking?
Hahha...On the Valentine days...She left me...I remember that time i was suffering from knee and mind injury....Hahah..I didnt blame her cause truely,i'm not a good stead...She left me,wise choice...I regret...Playing too much game...Showing my temper....I was sad real sad....What's the use...

After 5 months...At alan's birthday...I get to know a girl call Karen...Hahah...Guess you all know what happened next bah...Yes...We get together on 7th july 2006...Hee...I trusted always keep her by my side...Accompany her where she wanna go...We did alot of things together....Both of us learn things from each other...She was working in pizza hut when i get to know her...She quit and join giraffe...Then because of a guy call Edward...She break with me...That time same things...I was having my exams...I was damn low....Hahah...We got patch back but still ends up breaking...Hahah...

Maybe i don have the fate of having a girl...Hmmm...Don talk so much le bah....Karen de things next time then post bah...I'm quite tired for tonite...Good nite everyone...Take care and bye...

So boring...

2007-05-16T04:40:00.000-07:00

Hai...Today go school study...Next week got test...Must study... This days i'm bored,feeling abit lonely...Cause i continue to be my good guy...Don wish to be a devil...

Haiz...Haiz...Haiz... Stupid chengu,stupid me...Why in the hell you do this choice...You feeling great?Hahah....This weekend try my best to make myself high...Ahahah...

I really make a wrong decision... I'm a bastard...Sorry gladys...I didnt mean it...

2007-05-12T08:52:00.000-07:00

Hai...Today suppose a happy day...I boom myself...Didnt i promise myself not to tell?Si Chengu...What the fuck are you thinking...Didnt you say on the weekends you wont message her?Why did you do so?See la...Problem come le...Why tell her you miss her?!!!!!!Didnt you say this gap is the best?Just a friend...Momo de shou zhu ta...Why why why??

I'm a bastard...Real fucking bastard...Maybe...This will be my last time message her find her and meet her...I blown everything...I really blown it...What should i do???Many question in my mind...And i think i shouldnt love and shouldnt being love...Who will love a bastard??I admit...I've NEVER been a good stead...Esther gladys and karen...What i have given them? Nothing...If i'm a girl...I will NOT choose a boy like me...Like to tie my stead very tied...Not giving them enough freedom,care,concern,love,security...Which girl would want this type of guy?Simply no one...Hahah...

I always try to give myself more confident...But end up?A negative answer...Qiao hui,ji hui?My love life sucks...Always dump by girls...Like that girl...Dare not speak up...Trying my best to keep my emotion...i cried in my heart...Who knows?I promised my mum...I wont cry easily...Yes... i did it...I didnt let my mum down...

Gladys...You know how much i miss you?Even when i'm with karen...I still misses you...When i'm alone...You gave me the warmth that no one has given me before...Your smile...Till now...I still remember...I know its very wrong of me...But i couldnt control it...After what happened tonight...I'm truely sorry...Hope that you and your stead wont quarrel with this matter...Sorry sorry sorry...What i can do now is to wait...I cant confirm how long can i wait...I just wish you and your stead stay happy...You happy i'm happy...When you feel like crying,i'll accompany you...If you wish to see stars...I'll accompany you...You 1 word i steady...No man yuan...Sorry..I just cant stop liking you...If you want to avoid me...Its ok...I'm used to be lonely and i can take it...Take care my friend...Loving couples for the both of you...You have my blessing...Thanks god for letting e to get to know you...Bye....

JOVI"S BIRTHDAY....

2007-05-11T19:12:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday to you,happy birthday to you,happy birthday to jovi,happy birthday to you....Jovi...17 le wor...Must be more mature le...I know tonight she's not going...Don worry...You still got us to gay with...Remember...Life is NOT just her and Nobodyelse...

Hai....Yestaday zhen de shi yi can huan xi yi can kong....She called me,ask me where am i...Then ask me whether want to me her not...My answer is fast,short and simple...YES,i now go...We meet at 237...Hahah...Seeing her and wendy come...I knew something will going to happen...Hahah...Zhen de very zhun...Wendy tell me to accopany her to wait for her stead to come...Kao...Wendy knew i like her,then why in the hell she still ask me to stay?Trying to make me agony...Maybe she dint do it on purpose de bah...Maybe she just don wanna be a lightbulb herself...Finding a person to accompany to be 1....Zhong zhi,very saddening...I make a lie....Telling them i'm meeting wee di and i go off....

Ok la...I going off le...Byebye..

Jovi heading for his 17....

2007-05-08T02:46:00.000-07:00

Hey man...This sat we are going to make jovi upside down...Hahah...Very sian lehz...Just come in see see....Byebye...Got to go...Byebye

haii....still the same...lonely weekend...

2007-05-03T06:21:00.001-07:00

haha...don know how many days never come in le...still the same...i hate weekend...so lonely...cant message...cant stay around yishun,town area,bugis...whole man...sucks...is there a place where i can spend a day without troubles?i can play like siao kia?Haha...

maybe go bugis again...with ah le...he wanna buy boxer...haha...bugis...seem like every week i'm going there to do fishing...hai...but i want the fish is already hooked up...i'm just waiting...waiting...

I"M GLAD TO HEAR THIS...

Ah girl...Why are you telling me all this??

2007-04-27T00:32:00.000-07:00

Today...Sucks...Though many people are always waiting for weekends...I don like it...In fact,i hate to the core...I today already very stress about school works...Very du lan myself...I always think that she'll be hard on her studies...She told me her class sucks,people in there sucks...School sucks...I'm worrying for her...Yet,she proven me wrong things...She fine there...Enjoying there...Seeing her with a guy friend,i don know whether is her boyfriend or what...I should be happy about that...But... I du lan myself...Why am i be worrying all those nonsense where she don care a damn thing about it?Why i'm so stupid??Why i'm so fCuked up? Never mind...I told myself...Forget it...If she's happy about it...I wont care it anymore...

I don know today why my temper so hot...In 969...I'm trying to cool down...But it doesnt seem working...I still fed up of things which i don know...I'm confused,sad,lonely...Who knows?I always trying to pretend to be strong...But who really knows what am i thinking...I'm feeling lonely,real lonely...Wishing that she would hug me...Tell me i will always beside me guarding you...I know what i'm saying now is really girlish...Haha..This is what i feel...I'm a pathetic loser....My friends always tell me to look on the bright side,think positive...Yeah,i did...I think positively...No use...Still the same words...I'm a loser...

Till when i was back in yishun...I recieve a message from ah girl...Saying she saw G*****...I knew that i will be once disappointed...Just when i reach yihong house....She told me the whole procedure...I was shattered...Saying she was with her stead....I hide my emotion...Trying to be cool,act like its nothing to me...Ah girl,if you see this part,don be angry with me or blame yourself...Your biao ge isnt really a good biao ge...He is a coward...Always hiding feelings from people...Only dare to tell some people...My heart breaks and will no longer easy to mend them back...I'm sorry everyone...Writing all this rubbish in here...Hahah...Have a good weekend...Jia you o v^^v

Feeling so bored...Its a memorial on 25/04...If you still remember...

2007-04-26T04:37:00.000-07:00

Hai....Today also don know what to write...Sian jiu dui le...25/04...I still remember it...But i don know you still remember mah?...Hahah...

Tml don know want go where...Maybe asking wee di to go out...Hahah..Go bugis??Maybe bah...Today my day very short and simple...Dint eat,study,hang out with friends...Ahem till almost got into LALA land...Hahah...Now going to eat le...byebye...Jovi...Study hard o...

Wo ai shang yi ge bu kai ai de ren

2007-04-24T05:07:00.000-07:00

Haii...So many days dint come in write write le...No com to use...Hmmm...This few days busying with my school work...Everyday come back cant rest...Got to revise,work...Getting out of breath...I'm so lonely...Now also don like weekdays le...I'm scared to message with her....I had used my excuse of asking her...She can sense it...She confirmed sense de dao...So i decided not to message her too often...This distance is enough...Though its really tough to do that...I had no choice...She's happy,i'm glad....

Just hopping that whenever she's sad,she will tell me,share with me....Let me share abit of your trouble...Wo zhen de ai shang yi ge bu kai ai de ren...Dang lian very xin kou...I'm missing you every seconds,every minutes,every hours...Just missing you...Just you misses your stead...

Hey jovi...Hope you see this paragraph...Study hard,we are hopping to see your good results...If your results good...Hong they all steady...We treat you eat your lovely sirilanka(i don't know how to spell it...Hahah)crab...Okay?No matter what's the result of that person...If you still treat us as your brothers....Promise us not to do anything stupid...We'll be missing your laughter...And your hands...AND PLEASE....STOP saying anything ask chengu...Thank you....

Girl...I miss you...Bye...

Getting real fliank up tonight...Body aching...

2007-04-21T07:35:00.000-07:00

Kao man...Play basketball today...Raining again...Everyweek the same...Fliank man...But today got a new people with us wee di...Hahah...Simply hate weekends..Hahah...Body aching this few days..Really pain...But i remember one of your sentence...Today...Same again...The siao jovi...Laugh what we are laughing yestaday...Put the head,put the hand...O~~man...Don go try try ar...And what i tell you yestaday,its a joke....Don take it too serious...

Hai...Today cannot high le...Cant drink...I cant see the double J drunk...Hey jason and jovi...Next time bah...Now watching Liverpool match,with many people...Ah girl,the only girl now...Cant go orh orh,cause the door is locked...Hahah...So ke lian...

Man...Now body being to ache again,hungry somemore...Shyt man...Jovi,MB in everything...Now got two meaning le...Cant anyhow say le hor...E~GOON!!!Bye~~~~

What a boring Sat...Cant find anything to do~~~~

2007-04-20T20:37:00.000-07:00

Man Jason....Why you didnt come yestaday,we are waiting for you...Come happy happy...Drink drink and drunk drunk mah...Hahah...Hai...I being to hate weekends...Fucked up...Cant study..But the main reason not this lor....Hahah...Don about this anymore bah...Later maybe going play basketball with jovi,ah le and wee di....Hope we can be siao kia for today...Don wish for anything to happen...But wishing that she will message me...Even one message and i'm contented man...

Hohoho...Later night time than i'll continue bah...Just boring come in write write...Guys and girls out there...Enjoy today...The night is still young...Byebye

Finally got start lesson ler...

2007-04-19T05:07:00.000-07:00

Hey man...Kinda suck man...Today then start my first lesson...But...I'm sad...Not in the mood...What you said...I'm jealous,not happy,yet i had to act like its nothing...I'm okay with all this...I hate weekends...Turning even lonely,i wish i could go out with you...Stay beside you...

I drink and i'm drunk...I'm tired but don feel like sleeping...What to do???I'm justing missing you...Dare not tell anyone that i miss you,i want you...Its a special feeling to talk with you....I know you have a stead ler..But i just wanna be at your side...Seeing you laugh,your smile,your action.It really attract me....I really like that feeling...Hahah.Also donno what i'm writing...Just feeling to see you now...I really wish to see you now...Missing you alot...Shhhh...Lets be slient for awhile...

Gei wo ni de ai,ruan wo pei zhe ni qu wei lai...Gei wo ni de ai,shou la shou zhe bu fang kai...

Will i have a chance??I really wish i could have it...Seeing you like that,i'm happy and i'm sad...Hearts doesnt go as what my mind are thinking...Love is a weird thing(For me)...I always doncherish what i had.Blame who?MYSELF....Why i'm so fucker...Fuck man...It really sucks...

Hey jovi,study hard...Not studying for her,study for yourself...Chiong for it..Get a good result..We all are worring about you...Please cherish this last opportunity.....Don give up...We will be your support...Always backing you up...

Hahah..Dont know what i'm thinking now...Hahah...I very sian...Trying to numb myself with beer...I'm not drinking for a relationship...I'm drinking because of you...I'm trying my best to get close you...Trying to understand you...Trying to love you like before...Trying to talk with you...But i'm scared that you don care me...

Lastly...Thanks for everyone..Giving me all the fun and laughter..Hehe..I love you all,you guys...Muacks!!!!!Thats for today..Byebye....Take care everyone...

Hey man~~~I simply LOVE you guys man

2007-04-15T09:12:00.000-07:00

Hey jovi and jason...You two shouldnt be drinking that much...High until like that man...So funny jason,instant drunk...Jovi also...Almost vomite when say TA LO kie... Scare scare you will vomite lehz...Hey man jovi...Rest assured...Got time come out de..Don worry man....I just love you guys...You know it..Hahah..

Don sit in the middle of the road,just now dangerous sia...Still shout so loud...Yihong!!!! You are my T-A-N-K Tank.... Jason also...Shouting idols...Man...Thanks very much...I very happy today...So much fun and laughter...Shiok....Hao lar...Write till here le...Tml schooling liao...Tired...Good night everyone

Hey hey~School reopen tml...Yes....

2007-04-14T22:10:00.000-07:00

Hai...Today also boring...Just wake up then start writing this...Ah le and jovi so high man,about yestaday de things...Starting jovi had so much frustration..Wait for 1 hour plus hor..Finally wait dao le lor..Hahah... Later think going play soccer again bah..With Yihong,Jovi,Jason,Uncle John and philip,Zhiqiang and Zhiwei...

Hao la,today write till here bah..See later got time come in write not..Byebye..Wish everyone stays happy~~~~

ahyo... Today very sian lehz

2007-04-14T01:57:00.000-07:00

Kao leh... No where to go de.Yestaday better.Still got go bugis with wee di and jovi chew.Man... Yestaday so funny de jovi and wee di.Go suntec arcade play the basketball machine.Sucks..My point so low de,haha.... Jovi also waste 4 dollars catching a winnie the pooh soft toys..Gay??Nono,so sweet hor jovi...Hahah.. On the way back also very funny..Fall down while listening to shakira lei... Classic lor... Make us laugh till siao kia.Opposite block also can hear it..

Hai...Today more worst.No place to go de.Yihong go out buy his school things with Huimei,left me ah girl jovi and ah le and his maid at home slacking.So we decided to go play basketball lor but a few mins later....ZZZ... Raining...Then we sit at the block there slack again..Talking craps..Then go home le.Rain stopped..Arghhh...Hai...No place to go really very sian...Man.School starting soon le.Wait for 2 more days bah..Hehe...Miss you all.Byebye

What a night for Man United and Chelsea~~

2007-04-11T06:15:00.000-07:00

Yoho.This is my first posting for this blog o.... Hahah. Wasai. Man United rocks man. Hitting 7 goals against Roma. 2 for Michael Carrick,2 for Cristiano Ronaldo,1 for Alan Smith,1 for Wayne Rooney and 1 for Patrick Evra. Its so cool man. But wasted,jovi chew,why you don want come?Confirm tio gao de,also can win till crazy.Hahah.Faster come yishun ok?Training for our left flanker,our Ryan giggs.Saying about Giggs,he assisted 3 goals,that's cool.Hahah.

Yup yup,continue what i was saying,Chelsea was so lucky to have Michael Essien back in the game.When Valencia scored in the first half,we though its all over.Hmm.Till Shev Andriy Shevchenko scored.And in the 91 mins,Michael Essien blasted off Valencia's net.Hahah.

Today is Liverpool and AC Milan.We just wait and see bah.Hahah