Today...Sucks...Though many people are always waiting for weekends...I don like it...In fact,i hate to the core...I today already very stress about school works...Very du lan myself...I always think that she'll be hard on her studies...She told me her class sucks,people in there sucks...School sucks...I'm worrying for her...Yet,she proven me wrong things...She fine there...Enjoying there...Seeing her with a guy friend,i don know whether is her boyfriend or what...I should be happy about that...But... I du lan myself...Why am i be worrying all those nonsense where she don care a damn thing about it?Why i'm so stupid??Why i'm so fCuked up? Never mind...I told myself...Forget it...If she's happy about it...I wont care it anymore...
I don know today why my temper so hot...In 969...I'm trying to cool down...But it doesnt seem working...I still fed up of things which i don know...I'm confused,sad,lonely...Who knows?I always trying to pretend to be strong...But who really knows what am i thinking...I'm feeling lonely,real lonely...Wishing that she would hug me...Tell me i will always beside me guarding you...I know what i'm saying now is really girlish...Haha..This is what i feel...I'm a pathetic loser....My friends always tell me to look on the bright side,think positive...Yeah,i did...I think positively...No use...Still the same words...I'm a loser...
Till when i was back in yishun...I recieve a message from ah girl...Saying she saw G*****...I knew that i will be once disappointed...Just when i reach yihong house....She told me the whole procedure...I was shattered...Saying she was with her stead....I hide my emotion...Trying to be cool,act like its nothing to me...Ah girl,if you see this part,don be angry with me or blame yourself...Your biao ge isnt really a good biao ge...He is a coward...Always hiding feelings from people...Only dare to tell some people...My heart breaks and will no longer easy to mend them back...I'm sorry everyone...Writing all this rubbish in here...Hahah...Have a good weekend...Jia you o v^^v